Light and love, Baby. Light and love…

Looky here !!!!

Yes !

That is the sunshine and blue sky above the gorgeous green maples

I get to watch everyday outside my studio !

I have to tell you that this sunny day means a lot to me and my morale.

I have been living in a place of worry, fear, and even moments of panic for the last few days.

I HATE IT WHEN I GO THERE !!!

I get kind of disgusted with myself, because in my heart and Soul, I really know better.

I just seem to let those old patterns take over sometimes.

I really do believe that life will keep on sending those lessons to learn until we break those patterns and realize that they are no longer necessary.

Not sure if I got an A on this lesson this week, that’s for sure !

But I am working hard at bringing up my grade.

Anyway, the sunshine and warm day, like the end of May should be, is going to be a definite help in shaking off my “greyness”.

I did manage to do some art this week, in spite of feeling like crap. It was actually a nice escape from my own head !

This is the two page spread in Andrea’s lovely book for the Sistahood of the Traveling Sketchbook swap. The book will be on its way to Jennifer later today. I had to do something for the month of May and here’s what filled the pages :

The two figures in the tulip represent my Mom and me.

My mom’s birthday is in May, as well as Mother’s Day and that makes the month especially significant to me.

My Mom and I have a very special relationship; one that grew out of some major healing on both of our parts,  and it has become like the phoenix, more powerful after the fires have burned away the past.

One of the most special moments in my life was when my Mom took me in her arms and rocked me, like you would a little girl with big hurts. I was in my late 20’s at the time.

Being an adult and accepting that sweet loving from my Mom went deep inside to heal hurts from my childhood. And for my Mom, I think it healed many of the regretful or guilty feelings she had had about some of her mothering skills when I was little.

What I do know for sure was that was a moment that deepened our connection, and made me open to an amazing, loving relationship with my Mom. For this, I will always be so very grateful for that moment in time.

So today is Wednesday.

Friday morning, I am having my 4 wisdom teeth pulled under intravenous sedation.

I know everything will be fine so I won’t as for your prayers or wishes on that front,

but if you could add some sweet loving ju-ju to help me feel brave and let go of old fears that really don’t serve me well any more,

that would be appreciated beyond words.

May you be open to love in its many forms today, Beautiful Ones !

Happy Wednesday !