Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Fearless Artist VS Stuck Chicken

So I am stuck. Really stuck in my life. Not sure who to ask for help, what to take on, where I want to go, why I am here or how to get to a new place. Yep, the who, what, where, why and how of the sticky stuckness has me tightly in it's grasp ! Sigh....

And yet, this is what I did today :



"getting to know you inside and out" - journal page

(acrylic paint background - dragging paint with old credit card, white gel pen details, anatomy images found on Flickr, crowns from ArtChixs)

sweet spot from journal page

How can I be so fearless in one area of my life and so frozen in sticky, scary, stuckness in most of the rest ? To me, this journal page is fearless - no inner critic stopped me from doing anything ! I just went for whatever my inner artist wanted. I love this page. I love that I made it. I love the artist in me that is capable of it. I don't even give a crap about what you think of it...I really and truly made it for me !!!!

So, now, how do I translate this into the other things I need to do to get my life moving in a more positive, fulfilling direction ? How do I break through that paralyzing fear that holds me in place ? I know, you are all saying "Just do it!" like some crazy sports equipment commercial on high volume in stereo or surround sound !!!!

But I can't hear you. I have a sticky stuckness stuck like a banana in my ear*...

I suppose I will dig it out and face stuff eventually...but for now... where is the paint, paper and glue ?

*[the banana things is an old time reference to Ernie from Sesame Street - didn't want you to think I was crazy or anything !!! ;-)]

7 comments:

Becci said...

Hey Kim...I followed a link on Michelle Ward's blog to Julie Prichards blog to your's...Yes, it does feel good to be appreciated even in cyber space!

I am so stuck too! I'm still functioning every day but I feel lifeless, and stuck. I keep asking for some guidence but what I get is silence, bummer. I wanted someone to call me on the phone or something and give me the the perfect answer to why I feel so un-fullfilled and why I just can't "just go do it"! But no calls yet! Bummer again!
Anyway, until I either get an answer or a Dove icecream bar I'll just be calm and still and know I am not forgotten by God and my spark will spark!

Keep creating...

Have a great hair day! Becci

LostLuggage said...

Man...that Becci gets around.. LOL

I think everyone gets stuck once in a while.. I know I do. These days I am trying to evaluate if I am stuck or bored..or are they the same? Am I stuck because I am bored? Who in the hell knows...just wanted to chime in here and tell you not to worry...feelings like this are totally natural. It's the people who tell me that they are never bored or struck that make me nervous.

And by the way...DIG your page!

arlene said...

Kim, it looks (from this glorious page!!!) that you DO know what to do, and you are doing it. Maybe you're just expecting instant results when it is a process?? Maybe you need to be more patient and enjoy the stuckness, leave the banana in place, and ignore what the world says. After all, when you're making art like this you are speaking loud and clear that beauty is unfolding from your core. (When I need to build my core I focus on Home-Work-Love-Play. This looks like at least a couple of those things.)

Anyway, enough blathering off unsolicited advice...what was I thinking?!

I LOVE your page!

xo arlene

Sarah said...

hi Kim

I love the work you are creating, and identify very much with the fear.

no advice, other than wait it out as it WILL subside

I had a very dark year last year and didn't think I would get ever out of it. I tried lots of different approaches to lifting my depression - none of them seemed to work.

but one day I woke up and realised I was ok again - like a weight lifted off my chest.

Interestingly, I did much of my very best art/craft work during that period, so I guess it wasn't all bad :)

I hope your weight lifts soon x

Funky Art Queen said...

Its true, everyone feels stuck sometimes. Have you read The Secret? It is an awesome book, it really inspired me. Its not for everyone but perhaps you would enjoy it. Reading is what always gets me pumped up again. You are a lovely lady and you just keep putting one foot in front of the other and reach out to people, meet new people, seek support from your friends and family. Love ya

Funky Art Queen said...

Its true, everyone feels stuck sometimes. Have you read The Secret? It is an awesome book, it really inspired me. Its not for everyone but perhaps you would enjoy it. Reading is what always gets me pumped up again. You are a lovely lady and you just keep putting one foot in front of the other and reach out to people, meet new people, seek support from your friends and family. Love ya

Jennifer said...

I think the sticky stuckness is going around like a flu. It's an epidemic as I read around different areas. I feel it. I feel a desire to move and the awareness of what holds me back...I feel that I can't see myself beyond the moment or fear my amazing self that waits to be realized just beyond the moment of stuckness. Then there's the world around me and if people, things, and events would behave as I have planned, things would be so much smoother, LOL!