that I think will help
over the years
I have learned that they really don't.
(journal page 2008)
I used to pick up a cigarette.
Oh, some days, I miss those puppies !
I don't choose those anymore (it is about a year and a half now...).
I still go to the comfort food - you know, kind of medicate with food...
That will be my next battle...
But in the meantime,
I have also learned how to pick up some new, healthier tools as well.
Yesterday was one of those days.
I was literally buzzy with anxiety.
I have stopped asking why for now.
That just seems to make the whole thing worse in my crazy brain.
I just try to accept that some days are like that
and look for the tools to help me get through...
Yesterday, my tools of choice was this :
I was in a rock painting zone.
Just in the present moment...
Ahhh, the relief...
Most of the other stuff was just in my mind anyway and had nothing to do with the present moment. Besides, it would still be there when it was time to deal with it all.
In those rock painting moments, I was able to just be...
The Buddhists say that happiness is relief from suffering...
I think that is what I experienced yesterday...
I hope your present moment brings you to happiness today, Beautiful Ones...
Big Love to you !