So this is where I sound like a spoiled brat.
Coming home from my awesome trip to FLA
I crash landed.
I have been my least favorite version of myself since Monday.
The weepy, lost, sleepy, unhappy, depressed, self-defeating, unmotivated, basically miserable me that I love to hate.
I laid low, wandered the house, sleeping a lot, tearing up at the drop of a hat and feeling like I wanted to escape from myself and my crazy brain so very badly !
I couldn’t even acknowledge all the wonderful stuff I have in my life, which I really KNOW but couldn’t quite access for the life of me!
ICK!!!! I hate it when that happens !
Now whether it is because I just let myself wallow for three days (yes, my husband is a saint !),
David, Patron Saint of Crazy Wives
or because the full moon is over with,
or because some hormonal shift has occurred within this body I am struggling to love and understand,
or because I just got my super shined up diamond engagement ring and my brand new 10th anniversary band yesterday and I needed diamond crystal power to feel better ( I am the Rock Fairy, right ? And these are some really really nice rocks ! Thanks again, Love, for letting me wear these gorgeous family jewels!)…
Whatever it is, I woke up this morning feeling much more like my Self, thank God !
Suddenly, I remembered and reveled in little everyday joys, like I usually would.
Like morning coffee in the great mug I painted at the Fired Up ceramics place in Seaside with the girlies last week,
with a slice of freshly baked Lemon Poppy Seed Bread no less (don’t get to excited, it was from a box mix, but still !)
Or like the Amarylis bulb I got David for Christmas that is blooming in the dining room.
Such a magical growth in the dead winter season !
Or my batch of Rock My World Rocks getting ready for delivery to Arizona and giving me a good message before they go…
Or my furry kids, who love me now matter what, even if I am a mopey momma !
(“What’s up, Mommy ?”)
(“Aw, she will be herself in a day or two, I am sure…”)
(“You should just take a nap in a sunbeam, Momma. It always works for me.”)
(“I prefer snuggling with a buddy myself, Momma. Cheeks and I are willing to nap with you !”)
And even the bright, white snow outside which I can totally see the beauty of as long as I don’t have to go out and shovel or drive in it !
I KNOW that life is good, so very, very good.
And I am grateful to be back in the land of living it.
Here’s to loving and sharing everyday Joys, Beautiful Ones
Oh, and I thought I would share two pieces from my art journal that were created in Seaside with Beth working on her photo editing on the big kitchen table beside me.
They bring me artist joy and remind me how good my life is too!
(Pieces of me – Art Journal Page – January 2011)
(Let Me Float More – Art Journal Page – January 2011)
Enjoy your Thursday !