Woke up wonky today.
Hate that !
Especially when I had been on such a streak of really, really good days.
But this morning, there was this heaviness.
This kind of sorrow thing in me.
I did wake up with a bad dream involving hurt kitty cats and panic attacks,
so that may be where some of it comes from.
PMS time of the month is here too, I think.
Anyway, whatever it is, I was WONKY.
I got the message to go and “walk it off” from a few places, right after I got up.
So I listened.
I got bundled up, covered the bed head with a hat, put Chica on her leash and headed out for a walk around the neighborhood.
I was out there for about 35 minutes and left some rocks in some fun places.
I was a little less wonky when I got back.
Plus I had nice rosy cheeks.
Then I got the message to go and make art.
So I listened.
I did this piece in my art journal.
About half way through the process of letting myself just play,
The post was all about using the child-like wisdom within us to experience life
in the present moment.
While I read the post, and while I made the connection to it as I painted my wonkies away,
I realized I have gotten pretty damn good at using that wisdom for myself.
Not sure of the future…
Not wanting to repeat or relive moments from the past…
Live in the now.
Because this is the only one moment I know about for sure.
And as hard as it seems sometimes,
I have the choice on how wonky it will be.
Blessed with having learned this.
That’s what I am.
So while I am not my usual cheery, Queenly self, the wonkies have eased a lot.
Look at all that’s right, Kimbo.
Your kitty cat is curled up in the studio, safe and sound, and keeping you company as you listen to awesome tunes and paint your beautiful heart out.
Not bad for the first Tuesday of 2011.
Hope your Tuesday is wonky free, beautiful Ones.
Big Love !