So this is where I sound like a spoiled brat.
Coming home from my awesome trip to FLA
I crash landed.
I have been my least favorite version of myself since Monday.
The weepy, lost, sleepy, unhappy, depressed, self-defeating, unmotivated, basically miserable me that I love to hate.
I laid low, wandered the house, sleeping a lot, tearing up at the drop of a hat and feeling like I wanted to escape from myself and my crazy brain so very badly !
I couldn’t even acknowledge all the wonderful stuff I have in my life, which I really KNOW but couldn’t quite access for the life of me!
ICK!!!! I hate it when that happens !
Now whether it is because I just let myself wallow for three days (yes, my husband is a saint !),
David, Patron Saint of Crazy Wives
or because the full moon is over with,
or because some hormonal shift has occurred within this body I am struggling to love and understand,
or because I just got my super shined up diamond engagement ring and my brand new 10th anniversary band yesterday and I needed diamond crystal power to feel better ( I am the Rock Fairy, right ? And these are some really really nice rocks ! Thanks again, Love, for letting me wear these gorgeous family jewels!)…
Whatever it is, I woke up this morning feeling much more like my Self, thank God !
Suddenly, I remembered and reveled in little everyday joys, like I usually would.
Like morning coffee in the great mug I painted at the Fired Up ceramics place in Seaside with the girlies last week,
with a slice of freshly baked Lemon Poppy Seed Bread no less (don’t get to excited, it was from a box mix, but still !)
Or like the Amarylis bulb I got David for Christmas that is blooming in the dining room.
Such a magical growth in the dead winter season !
Or my batch of Rock My World Rocks getting ready for delivery to Arizona and giving me a good message before they go…
Or my furry kids, who love me now matter what, even if I am a mopey momma !
(“What’s up, Mommy ?”)
(“Aw, she will be herself in a day or two, I am sure…”)
(“You should just take a nap in a sunbeam, Momma. It always works for me.”)
(“I prefer snuggling with a buddy myself, Momma. Cheeks and I are willing to nap with you !”)
And even the bright, white snow outside which I can totally see the beauty of as long as I don’t have to go out and shovel or drive in it !
I KNOW that life is good, so very, very good.
And I am grateful to be back in the land of living it.
Here’s to loving and sharing everyday Joys, Beautiful Ones
For more joy and a lot less spoiled brat, check out Meri’s blog and more Sharing the Joy Thursday.
Oh, and I thought I would share two pieces from my art journal that were created in Seaside with Beth working on her photo editing on the big kitchen table beside me.
They bring me artist joy and remind me how good my life is too!
(Pieces of me – Art Journal Page – January 2011)
(Let Me Float More – Art Journal Page – January 2011)
Enjoy your Thursday !
Big Love.
23 comments:
My whole week has been like that until this morning and I woke up feeling better!
LOVE the gorgeous artwork Kim!
LuLu~*xoxo
Glad you are back to feeling yourself again.. You did some fun pages too. I love how accepting animals can be. The rock Be gentle with yourself is always a good message and one I often forget... Have a lovely day.
Being gentle with yourself is the best medicine ever! I LOVE this mermaidy journal page! You are so brave and honest. I love you Kim...
napping in a sunbeam sounds like the perfect therapy . . .
xoxo
Debi
Having all the accepting love (acceptance seems to me the definition of Love) from your sweet man and your fur friends is the best medicine in the world. This time of year is SO hard! I'm feeling these grey days too. Big hug and lots of love will get us over the hump.
I love the Art that's pouring out of your hand and heart.
xox
The ebb and flow of your life is all it is. Ride the waves, FLOAT MORE.
1. i love that i got to see you create those pages right in front of me.....oh, your talent is amazing !
2. believe me. that crash and burn. i know. i also know that at the end of january when i get home, i too will be a mess.
3. and the fact that we have saint like hubbys....well really. what more could we ever ask for ?
ps.....LOVE the new ring/diamonds !
you are a sparkling rock fairy now !!
Love the pages and the float quote! Beautiful pics of your babies too! Glad you are able to count your blessings. We all have days like those, when we need a good shake up!
i adored Beth and Deb!!!!
lucky you!
i think it is this thing of playing with possibilities that can get us all work up sometimes
and make us feel like a little strange or hard to adjust to the present but as you just said what matters is always there for you
look at that gorgeous doggie! and kittie!
and your husband support, wow!
that's awesome
okay that diamond is super but your husband seems to me in the pictures a pan de Dios (spanish for God's bread or better said a very good man)
yes indeed, you are blessed and loved...
hugs!
float more, steer less... oh my goodness, i do love that...
float on, my dear Big Heart...
xoxo
Glad you moved through the funk, yes, your David is a saint. Nice rocks indeed my friend. xox Corrine
Yes, yes, get some sunbeam therapy!!! or JUMP some more, what FUN YOU gals had together!!
Hi Kim, glad you are feeling better, I don't know what cause those blue days, but they do come. I have had a few of them lately myself.
Thank you for your kind comments about my journal pages, you asked about the stamp - it was carved by wonderful Mystele, "Little Glimpses".
Here's to joyful, thankful days!
Grace and peace
Your post is heart felt and beautiful. I am glad you are feeling better. I never know what it is that one can wake up with out of the blue, but am always so thankful when it has passed.
Your journal pages are fab! Each one of them is so expressive and so creative.
Hugs,
Terri
Yay for you! We all need to learn how to pick ourselves up, dust off and enJOY! Bravo!
Glad you're feeling back to yourself again!
Furry friends are so good for napping in sunbeams with, even if they do hog most of the sun. ;)
I love your work, it definitely brings me joy! The lemon poppy seed bread looks pretty good too.
As a professional hormonal roller coaster rider myself, I diagnose a chemical unbalance in your week -- plus the crash that comes after a vacation. Glad it was a couple of days and you re-emerged. Revel in the good.
oh I have those dark nights of the soul too... specially at the dark moon.. I am learning to nuture myself..
i am married to a Saint too..
and I tell you - that cake would be bringing me joy!! love poppy seed :)
We all should know the joy of collecting pieces of ourselves along the way (even acknowledging our bitchy, mopey selves), because God knows we've had too many situations in which we lost those parts and suffered in the process. And I think napping with a buddy sounds divine, but I wish my cat didn't take up so much space.
I hear you soul sister!! Glad you're feeling a little gentler - you deserve gentle.
hugs,
Kelley
loving the rock! your happy 10th band is so beautiful, like you.
one love, big hearted one.
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