Life has been all over the place around here lately.
A lot of sad news, like my friend Colleen’s untreatable metastasized breast cancer diagnosis.
Some scary stuff, like facing a lot of fear about medical tests myself, as well as waiting for results.
(All of which came back fine yesterday. Next up, Mammogram on April 3rd.)
Processing the sadness and the anxiety resulted in a whole lot of crazy monkey brain last week!!
So much so that this nutty page and equally weird haiku turned up in the journal.
I so wish I could get through my emotions a bit better instead of basically making myself a rather sick, nervous wreck.
I am proud of the fact that I did use some newer tools to help me through, and that the really icky, scary anxiety stuff was a little less intense than it has been in the past.
I told many a friend about what I was going through, and got a lot of wonderful support for my fears and feelings.
I used medication where needed, and also turned to meditation a few times. Man, those deep breaths and quiet moments can be so comforting.
And of course, the amazing support and unconditional love that my husband, David shows me is unbelievably precious to me.
This week, having received good news from my doc yesterday, and the fact that the weather has been so warm and sunny, I am coasting into a more hopeful and peaceful place, thank God!
That kind of shows up in my journal page today, don’t you think ?
I have been able to spend some important, tender and often sweet and fun time with Colleen, and will continue to do so as many times a week as our schedules allow.
Yesterday, we went to Pandora store at the mall and chose this Friends Forever Butterfly dangle charm for our bracelets.
It is so perfect as a symbol of our friendship !
It reminds me of the magical day a few years back, where we stopped at this out of the way attraction called “The Butterfly Place”, and shared an hour or so in awe as butterflies of all kinds flew around us in a spectacular, beautiful show.
Our gang of artsy friends have planned a long weekend away on Cape Cod in two weeks.
Girl time, sea and sand, and LOVING. I know it will be such a balm for all of our tender spots.
So today, I will find some sweet ways to celebrate the first day of Spring,
also the birthday of Thomas, my whiz kid awesome nephew!
I think it will include the first grilling time of the season
and definitely some time outside playing with this beautiful Chica-Dog !
Spring is here, so let’s play ball, Beautiful Ones !
Big, big love to you !