A worn-out zinnia with Thai Basil flowers…
A lonely begonia tucked beneath its greenery…
A Dahlia whose pot wintered in the basement and finally graced us with its bloom’s presence in the beginning of September.
with a self-portrait I took on a bad hair day recently.
I was thinking a lot as I woke up this morning. That tends to happen on Mondays. (I know it is Tuesday, but it feels like a Monday.)
I was thinking a lot about how much time I spend waiting for things to be just so.
For the “soul satisfying” part-time job to come.
For the sense of accomplishment to feel complete.
For the me I dream of to manifest herself.
I spend a lot of time in the “making do” mode or the “for now” mode.
“In the Mean Time” mode.
I will take this part-time job for now though it doesn’t rock my soul because I need the cash and it is here now.
I can’t live in the same city as with my family right now, so I will make do and and endure the stresses of traveling the long road and the super busy weekends to make sure I don’t miss important events.
I am not where I want to be physically at all, but in the mean time I will wear whatever clothes fit, which all seem to be black for some reason.
You know what ?
This making do or for now or in the mean time thing is really just a state of mind.
If I choose to turn it all around in my mind and heart, and make my perspective one that takes advantage of every precious moment of my life instead, watch how things can change :
-How lucky am I that when I really needed some extra cash, a part-time job came a found me ?
-How blessed am I to be able to drive the distance to my favorite peeps and participate in the celebrations of life with them ?
-How great did it feel to buy that perfectly soft black tunic top yesterday that I can make my own with a gorgeous scarf and some of my funky jewelry?
-And how wonderful does it feel in this very moment that I am able to move and walk and sing (though not well to some ears) and make art and LOVE others, life and myself ?
It feels like the way to go, big time !
I am realizing that I need to change my mind set, not my life !
I can LOVE the life I am in, right now.
So the part-time job isn’t a dream job. I have enough love in me to make it fun anyway.
So the weekends get jam packed when I head home to visit. I can slow it down and enjoy the driving and the talking time with David, and let everyone know I will get there when I get there.
So my body isn’t perfect, but I have a few pieces that cover it that feel good against my skin and some kick-ass shoes and accessories will make it work for the artist in me.
And I have this day, this chance to feed my soul, mind and body with good stuff : love, positive vibes, healthy food, movement and creativity.
The thought I am left with is that if I can’t change the whole picture and if I can’t completely change myself in this moment, I can either choose to be unhappy about it and let this day pass me by as I hang out being unhappy and down on myself….
I can choose to
LOVE THE ONE I’M WITH !!!!
And you know what else ?
When I really think about it, she is pretty damn worthy of that loving ! ;)
Love on your wonderful Self today, Beautiful One !
This is YOUR ONE Precious LIFE!